This project and the adventure we are on is intense. It seems we haven’t had many moments of pause in the past few months. During the weeks we go straight from work to the shop to finish woodwork preparation for varnish. On the weekends we drive an hour south to Bellingham to work on Leela and are almost always the last to leave the boatyard on Sunday evening to drive home exhausted and start the week again.
This and trying to balance connecting with our friends, family, exercise, sleep and our relationship.
I live in the here and now. It’s how I see the world, that this reality, right now, is the truth. It is hard for me to see the long view at times. To see that life won’t always be so busy or so fast. Because right now it is busy and fast, and there is less and less time for lingering. And I love lingering. Sipping coffee slowly. Watching the last bit of light from a sunset. Pulling the covers over our heads in the morning and entangling Emmanuel so he can’t get out of bed yet.
But there is a balance. There must be doing.
Emmanuel brings a perspective to this (thankgodhedoes) that is helping me right now. He sees the long view in a way that is hard for me to wrap my brain around. He excels in this (and in Excel spreadsheets – coincidence maybe?!). We both bring different ways of being into this world. And we are both strong in our convictions. He is helping me see the long view that it won’t always be so busy and fast.
We have a dream, and it takes doing.
“A thought can prompt. Words can stir. But it takes action to attain a dream.”
― Richelle E. Goodrich
And so Emmanuel reminds me of the long view, and in that, I’ll be able to be in the moment.
“It’s being here and now that’s important. There’s no past and there’s no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can’t relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don’t know if there is one.”
― George Harrison
And this summer I’ll tie him to the mast to slow us down if needed. 🙂